New Beginnings

These past few months have been interesting. Trying to have new beginnings with old relationships. It's not easy. There's been a lot of good times - which I'm so thankful for. Reflecting on those, certainly make these bumpy times go a bit easier. But only a bit. Tonight, as yet another hurt was inflicted, I wanted to give up. Hiding in my bed sounded really good to me. Drifting into vegetation state in front of the tv sounded even better. But I'm a creature of habit. And instead, I went about my evening routine, muttering under my breath, wishing to catch a break, instead of being broken. I opened up my books and prepared to study. I felt a tugging to pray instead. God led me to his words in Isaiah 40:27-31 "Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, 'My way is hidden from the LORD; my cause is disregarded by my God'? Do you not know? Have you not heard? the LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall: but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." I thought Whoa! Why am I complaining that God doesn't hear me? Do I really think he's forgotten me or just chosen not to answer me? No. I don't. I believe in his promises. I believe he has a grand plan for me and for this family. I also know that we are called to act on our faith and his promises rather than our heart and our emotions. For he says in Jeremiah that the heart is most deceitful part of our bodies. If we let it lead us, it will lead us to destruction. God promises that each one of us will be in his protection. We have a future of hope and prosperity. And if I look at the current "issue" in those realms, I can turn to God and he will transform what the enemy has planned for bad, and make it good. Praise God for the trials! Praise God for building of character!